Poorly pond!

I find it very sad seeing the state of the pond at the moment.  The water level has gone down considerably, at least 18 inches, the water is a swirl of green , stagnant maybe?  The pond weed is rife, in the pond and also in the river that feeds the pond.  Alot of the fish have died, providing the marauding seagulls with easy meals, and it is just generally a mess due to the hot weather we have had so far.  I can't remember a time when it looked this bad.

I visited Dads tree today for the first time in a couple of weeks, and that is not doing too well either.  There is a water feature in the area of park that the tree is planted, so I used a doggy bag to scoop up some water to try and feed the tree a bit.  I will return with a plastic milkbottle, or bucket and do the job properly later.  I would be very upset if the tree died totally.  Dad had one the same in his back garden which he loved, and that is the reason I chose the same species to go in the park.  It is the focal point I never had when Mum died, and I call out a hello to Dad whenever I go past it.  We scattered a few of his ashes there, amongst the roots of the tree, so part of him is there, literally.  I know his spirit is free and I am sure he wouldn't have minded a bit of him being parted from his main ashes.  Sounds a bit morbid typing it down!  I have just bumped into one of his neighbours who informed me the lady who lives in his house is expecting another baby in February.  It would be weird if it is born on Feb 28th as that is Dads birthday. 

Bit of a break, not that you would know obviously.  Have just been to the wool shop.  Oh dear, soooo tempting, which is ok when I have just been paid, but not when I am in my overdraft.  Just can't resist.  I sat there looking at all the wool and deciding what I could knit, instead of thinking of my patterns and buying the wool to match if you see what I mean.  I have a fair bit of wool waiting for a pattern!  Buttons.  Bought some fab buttons too which I am sure I can encorporate.  Useless woman that I am.  Food is the thing we need, not wool and buttons!

Right, off to hang the washing out.  It has cooled down and become overcast so I am pushing my luck I think, but hey ho, whats new?!

Hot and bothered

Wow, its been hot.  Its been very hot for England.  Trouble is, its also been humid.  The heat here is different from the heat abroad, its a wet heat if that makes sense.  If the nights were cooler and breezy it would have been lovely, but of course that hasn't happened.  Every one is getting hot and bothered and grumpy, me included.  I have always been a peace keeper, maybe that stems from having a very strict, military father.  No wasn't in my vocabulary, along with not disobeying.  I am a meek, mild person, anxious to please and putting myself at the bottom of the heap.  It is not within me to stand up and shout the odds sadly, just not brave enough and always thinking of peoples reactions.   Hence, in this heat, with everyone being hot, bothered and grumpy, myself included, I am tiptoeing around the household trying to soothe everything over.  I am stressed with it all.  I am hot at the best of times due to my illness, and this heat has almost taken me over at times.  I can see why some people have panic attacks over things now, I think if I had let go it could have happened to me!  Self combustion, here I come lol.  We had rain last night, and it is overcast today, although still hot and muggy.

Still knitting for the fayre in November.  Weird knitting snowmen and stockings in the heat.  Not easy with sweaty hands either, the wool doesn't slip on the needles very easily.  I think my early passion for it has gone, I am almost knitted out.  I think the pleasure for me has been browsing the patterns and choosing the wools.  Once I have to knit a certain item the fun goes out of it.  Mind you, I have added more books to my kindle so I can knit and read at the same time, much to the disgust of my husband who likes to talk to me whenever my bum hits a chair!  I know I shouldn't complain, but I do like peace.  I take after my Dad like that, happy with our own company.

I have registered with the General Dental Council for another year.  Sometimes I really want to give up work, its such an effort, but on the whole I enjoy it still.  I went through a really hating it period a few months ago, but happily that seems to have passed.  August and September are bad months because its when the receptionists and one nurse, who has no school age children, take their holidays and the panic for cover is rife.  I do what I can, but as you probably have gleaned by now, I can only do one extra session a week.  Not helpful when its between 5 and 10 extra sessions that need covering!  Three people are off in September, one on her honeymoon and two on holidays, again!  Two receptionists and a nurse, 18 sessions a week to be covered.  Not a hope of agency staff either due to the cost.  Such fun,in the words of Mirandas' mother!

Right, think that has emptied my brain of a bit of stress.  Its very therapeutic getting things off your chest without bothering anyone.