madness

Okay, thought I would fess up about my latest nutty escapades.  *takes a deep breath*
First one was about 2 months ago, yes, I have been holding it in all that time.  Becky knows but she is the only one!
I  had a shopping trolley full after a weekly shop, (how come the "weekly" shop never lasts a week?), and approaching the sliding doors to be released from Tesco's foyer I saw a lady on the other side coming in.  I stopped to let her come through and she stopped at the same time.  I smiled and started forward, and so did she.  Yup, the dance of the trolleys.  I stopped again and waved for her to come through, and this is when it slowly dawned on me.  The lady waved.  Looking closer I realised that actually there was no one there, no one that is apart from my shadow!  Trouble is, I am a giggler, and once I start its not always easy to stop.  So not only am I trying to wave myself through glass doors, I am giggling helplessly as I finally burst through them into the car park.

The next incident happened only yesterday.  I blame this one on my friend Rachel, and the happy chappy in the health food shop.
Had a lovely coffee morning with one of my best friends, we have a dog walk followed by a good old cup of tea though.  The conversation turned to aches and pains and Rach mentioned that her mum has taken cod liver oil throught her life and has no creaks and groans.  I am getting very stiff in the hip and knee area and decided that maybe I should start taking some too.  I was in Yate and being tired desperate to avoid the monstrosity that is Tesco (foyer, escalator and then a shop the size of a small country, with the bread and milk being at the furthest corner!) , so popped into the health food shop.  The chap saw me dithering and asked if I need help, and pointed me in the direction of the cod liver oil.  Whilst he was serving another customer I looked at the array of products.  He then came over and asked what I was looking for.  "Cod liver oil at Tesco prices" was my reply.  Ha ha.  Nope, won't get that here.  We chatted about whether I should have plain old cod liver oil, or have added calcium, glucosamine etc.  400mg, 550 or 1000.  Such a choice.  He picked up the 1000 dose, and showed me the bottle.  This is where the madness took over.  Man, those tablets were big!  I looked at them and neighed.  Yup, neighed.  Loudly.  He was shaking the bottle making the tablets rattle and i picked up a smaller bottle and shook them, saying "I'll just trot in for some tablets which are also a meal".  We were killing ourselves laughing and then he said "I remember you from the last time you came in!"  Notoreity at last.  I said "oh yes, the menopause stuff.  Its so good I haven't  had to use it, I just look at it on the window sill and it does the job!"  I have had to promise him that if I ever darken their doorway again I will try and behave.  Not much chance of that lol.  Sometimes I just can't help myself ..........

By the way.  I never did get those cod liver oil tablets.

giving in

Okay, heres the whingey blog.  Feeling like I want to give in and go back to bed today, which of course I won't.  Ironic that I knew I was going downhill a few weeks ago and took last week off with it being half term, and I have taken time off too early!  Looks like there may be another bout of time off due to sickness coming up.  I seem to manage around 2 - 3 months of reasonable health and then I crash.  I have promised my son and his friend I will take them to the cinema today to see The Lego movie.  I thought it would be an ideal time to slope off and look at wedding clothes.  Eldest son is getting married in May, and knowing how fast time flies I really should find something to wear.  Sadly his fiancees stepfather died a few days ago, so I feel that might put a touch of sadness to the day for Emma and her family.

Actually, I should go to bed for an hour or so instead of typing this.  Do something sensible for once instead of plodding on with things.  So, I bid you goodnight.

No time for a cuppa

Well, he did it!  Much kudos to my youngest son for having his head shaved, I am very proud of him.  It took 3/4 hour in all, his friends cut some of it off, but were too scared to have a go with the clippers.  I have to admit to feeling a bit wobbly when the number 1 blade went around his head.  Also, sweeping up all his hair and holding the brimming dustpan was another moment.  Eeek.  Bless him, he has raised £592, an incredible amount.  We are so touched by his friends who have sponsored him, plus friends and my work colleagues.  We went out yesterday and got him a hat, he said he didn't realise how cold his head would be!

Wednesday I was a bit wobbly healthwise, knew I would be, bloody stupid condition!  Anyway no more about that.

Younger daughter has been on camp all week with college, apparently rock climbing was the worst experience of her life, she nearly cried when she did abseiling, but unlike some of her friends, did go down, and she has a cold.  Apart from that all is hunky dory, I hope!  Picking her up soon so I will get all the news then.  Plus all the dirty washing lol.  She has pre warned me!

Rich is at his friends, went yesterday for a sleepover, its a bit quiet and lonely.  Was really weird last night with it just being hubby and myself.  A taste of things to come I guess.  Can't believe Bex will be going to uni next September/October.  Where has the time gone?!  Scary stuff!

Right, just a short one today, must get ready to pick up daughter.  No time for a cuppa!

Hibernation please

I don't want to moan, or do I?   I am so fed up of the weather at the moment.  Taking my dog out for his walk is now a chore instead of something pleasureable.  Luckily he felt the same way today and was happy to head off  home.  Normally I have to wait for him to sniff every blade of grass but today he was ahead of me, unheard of!  Walls are tumbling at the rate of knots, the well established tree in our neighbours garden is down, our gate and the neighbour on the other sides gate have succumbed.  And most of all, I am cold.  Think I mentioned this before, but its affecting my body, making me stiff and achey.  I think I should have hibernated this year.

I can't imagine how the homeless are faring, and I feel sorry for our postlady who arrives dripping and windswept every day without fail.  Worried about my daughter going on an activity week for college next week.  They have to do some volunteer work too, maybe they can rig up wind and rain protectors!  

Talking about worrying, I seem to be doing a lot of it lately.  I feel my shoulders are very heavy.  Everywhere you go people need help, animals need help, and I am beginning to feel overwhelmed.  Daft because I know I can't help every living thing, and hundreds of people do stirling work with aid.  I keep telling myself I can't and don't need to do it all.  Facebook is part of the culprit.  There seems to be more animal charity posts and petitions to sign, and as I prefer animals to people, it gets to me.  Maybe I should readjust my settings.  In fact, instead of ending with a cuppa I will go to FB and do that.   

I worry about my children, my son is getting married in a few months, can he afford it, are they coping, buy him some food to take back after his visit.  My daughter wants to learn to drive, she can't afford it, only just managing to pay her rent and bills atm.  Other daughter, activity week next week, the weather is awful, will she be warm enough, will she be safe.  Son, having his head shaved, my baby, I know it will grow back, but what we he look like, will he be teased, will he be warm!  Not even gonna start on the husband and his health!    Think I need time out, hibernation really does sound good!

Joining the ducks

By eck its cold today.  I have reached the point where the cold has seeped into my bones and I can't get warm.  Was cold at work yesterday and it just seems to have gone from there.  I blame the wind, its ferocious and goes straight through you.  The heater in our surgery seems to have two settings, hot or off, which is a pain, despite its many offerings of settings.  Never mind, could be worse, could just decide not to work, in which case I think we would join it!  Wouldn't be surprised if the bosses control it remotely behind our backs.  Week off next week, so happy.  Struggling to get up in the mornings.  I think 8am seems to be a nice time to get up, or maybe half past.  Hate dragging myself out of bed when the alarm goes off.

Got such a rubbish memory can't remember if I have mentioned the fund raising for Torresh?  Hes a 3yr old in Nepal who is in need of treatment for leukemai.  One of our patients set up a clinic a few years ago to treat children with bone marrow cancer and fund raises tirelessly to keep it going.  She has now been persuaded to try and raise fund for Torresh.  My son is having his hair shaved off next week, and I am proud and touched to say he has around £300 of sponsorship.  Alot of his friends can't wait to see his fringe go in particular, its a Justin Beiber original (much as I hate to swear and blaspheme!), and some of them are happy to have a go at cutting some of it off!  I am worried, I hope he knows what hes let himself in for.  I know, it will grow back, but I am a mum and worry about most things child related!  We are going to have a sort of Close Shave party for everyone.  Watch this space!

I am seriously getting worried about the weather.  I have fears of Britain disappearing under water with inland lakes a new feature!  The pond at the park is about to burst its banks which has never happened before.  I very nearly joined the ducks in the week, slipping down the muddy bank, flinging the bag of bread like a shotputter of repute, and rolling to within inches of the water!  The ducks all flew off quacking up (sorry, bad pun).  I did have a moment of worry as to whether I would climb back up the bank, or just stay slip sliding all day and have to be rescued.  My son, as normal, was very sympathetic when I told him and broke into peals of laughter.  They are used to me falling down, rolling down hills, falling in rivers.  Sadly there seems to be something about me!  No balance probably due to the ME.  Thats my excuse and I'm sticking to it.  I also still think I am a teenager and capable of great things.  Shame my body has other ideas.

Ooh, I had a go with some diving rods on Tuesday at the circle I attend.  I haven't used them before, and it was amazing.  Doesn't take much to make me grin with awe.  They really do move on their own.  Must get some :o)

Right, as seems to be happening lately, I am ending this with the intention of making a cuppa.

What a difference a day makes

Well, I am pleased to report that I feel better today, more upbeat.  Went to see my friend yesterday afternoon for a cuppa and we did what girlies do when they are together, gossip and moan lol.  Got things off my chest, got girlie advice, tea and biscuits - bliss.  It also made me realise how much I miss her.  Normally she works 3 days, but someone in her office is off having treatment for cancer and my mate has been filling in, which means there aren't many opportunities to catch up.  Hopefully her friend will be back at work in September and things will return to normal.  Having said that, she works in a school, so the end of July is when we can resume our natters :o)

Braved the weather today, not quite managing to make it between the raindrops, but luckily missing the heavy downpour.  So fed up of it and feel really sorry for the people who are flooded.  Can't really imagine what it must feel like to have to leave your home in 4 or 5 ft of water.  Surreal.

Other news, my lovely youngest son has decided to have his long locks shaved to raise money for a 3yr old in Nepal who needs treatment for leukemia.  Its a long, convoluted story, but a lady who attends our dental surgery set up a clinic in Nepal to allow children in the area suffering from Thalassaemia to have free treatment.  She has now met Torresh who needs treatment and has been persuaded by her friends that money can be raised to help achieve this.  I am very proud of my son, and his friends who have promised sponsorship of around £220 in 2 days.  The school have put a few obstacles in his way, but we are sorting them, and the grand shave will take place during half term.  Eeek!

I am knitting hats for the thalassaemic children and of course will be sponsoring Rich as well.  Its easy to tug at my heart strings, I am such an emotional person. 

Right, am off to my nice warm lounge to do a bit more knitting and reading, with a trusty cup of tea by myside.

bleeeerrrrrgggghhhhh

Do you ever have that, what are we doing here, moment?  I guess its the meaning of life debate that goes on.  I think I'm having it.  I look at my life, which I know could be so much worse, and just feel what am I doing and whats the point?  I really am at sea at the moment, totally lost. What a bummer!  Maybe its a midlife crisis, don't feel I have achieved anything apart from my fantastic children, can't work much due to my illness and therefore don't have the amount of money to make life easier.  I know it doesn't all come down to money, but sometimes you know, it does. 

I know I still miss my Dad loads, we had so much in common and his death sent me adrift. 

Do you know?  Think I will have a cup of tea, stiff upper lip and all that.  Just feel fed up of blogging depressive feelings, but it is a release.  Oh bollocks, am heading for the kettle!