I am beginning to suffer from empty nest syndrome. My children are at the stage they only need me to feed them and give them money and lifts. My daughter spends most of the time she is at home in her room and my son the same, although he has a room downstairs with his xbox and pc in, so I do at least hear him! I sit in the lounge knitting or reading, its quiet, and I feel empty and a bit lost. Of course, most of my friends my age have already been through this phase and are able to work to fill the void and earn much needed money. They envied me my late arrival of child number three, and then four. This means that so far I have had 27 years of having children around me. I know its going to be a good few years, probably around ten, before the youngest flies the nest, but that not needed feeling is strange and not nice. Its hard being a mother! I still enjoy having them around, most of the time! Bless em, love them all to bits.
There are a few ducklings on the pond, which is still looking yucky, despite the few days of rain we have had. At least the water level has risen, which is good. Most females, in fact I don't think I saw a single drake today. Its very weird. Blummin male swan is chasing the ducks for all he is worth. It really annoys me and spoils my enjoyment. I really do not like swans at all, no siree. There were a lot of dog walkers in the park today too. I am not really a very sociable person and I try to avoid the group as much as I can. I just don't like chatting. I think I take after my Dad in that respect, although as he got older, and I guess after Mum died, he craved company. I just like the peace and quiet. Mind you, I do talk to myself a lot so maybe that fills any need I have. Yup, I am the nutty woman wandering around chatting away quite happily with no thought to how I appear to others. Haven't been locked up yet!
Lets see, on the moan front, tinnitis is driving me potty, tired, sore throat and still suffering from vertigo. I will say no more.
My youngest daughter and I are off wedding dress shopping tomorrow with my prospective daughter in law. I never went wedding dress shopping for my weddings. The first time around I had my dress made, and the second time obviously I didn't wear a wedding dress. I say obviously, I guess some people do? Anyway, I am looking forward to it, and was touched that Emma asked us both.
Okay, thats enough for today. In other words, can't think of anything else to write about. Off to do yet more knitting. Hopefully one day I might make some money out of it ...........
