Sadly, today has not been such a good one. I have been aware that I have been balancing on the edge of the precipice for a good few weeks now, and last night I tipped over. Although I had a lovely day yesterday, there was way too much standing involved, followed by a mega late night (always a fatal one) and that was the straw that broke then camels back, or the push that sent me flying! It sounds really weak to say that standing up for a while can render me useless, but sadly, one of the effects of M.E is an inability to stand for periods of time. I had a lovely chat with friends whilst in Tesco (David, at last, someone as well as myself to talk to!), then got chatting to an old chap in the park about the ducks, kingfisher and heron, and then had to stand in the pub cos there were no tables for around half an hour. Result is that today I feel really rubbishy, joints are killing, knackered, feeling sick etc etc. Am not planning on another whine session about how I feel - not yet anyhow! I have had the warning signs and yesterday ignored them. There comes a point where you know you can't push it, and if you do you suffer. I am just glad that tomorrow is another Bank Holiday and I don't have to go to work! If I am still not well on Tuesday I may well make the patients suffer too. There has to be some benefits! Ha ha, as if. I will be sweetness and light as usual but probably forget totally how to "be a dental nurse" and have blank moments. It happens, believe me lol. Luckily I work with a fab dentist who knows what I can be like, bless his cotton socks.
One day I may well learn and take heed, stop fighting the inevitable and have an easier life, but then again, I will probably just stay stubborn and pay the price knowing me! I do wish that one of my family would take my dawgie out tho when I am collapsed in bed, poor little soul :o(
The BlackBerry is winning the music download war. Why can't everything just be in the "drag and drop" mould? I have pestered people, young and old, and still have got nowhere. Maybe Rich will have to wait until September when its BlackBerry season! lol Hopefully all will be revealed tomorrow, I have a friend who has one and we are going to talk! If not I think I will just buy Rich an MP3 player!! Bloody modern technology.
Right, I guess I am going to go back to bed. Going to leave the children to lock up and turn off the lights! Tomorrow, as they say, is another day, and hopefully a better one. If not, c'est la vie!
Well one thing I do think is a good plan...
ReplyDeleteKeep talking about it, even if it is just writing it down.
It feels like it does you some degree of good.
Otherwise it will all store up in you and that will just add to your burden.
As with all problems knowledge is key.
You know only too well the limits and consequences of stepping beyond. But I think it is good to do so yes I know you pay for having fun, but if you didn't do anything the ME would still remain, so I think it is more healthy to push than sit and wait.
Knowing the triggers is useful you just need to then find ways of helping you with them...
Some kind of portable chair maybe...or a more polite and chivalrous pub!
It feels that the way to deal with a condition like ME is to deal with it holistically and attack it from all sides.
Food, exercise, relaxation, fun, happiness, any medication that works, whatever feels right
But whatever keep on telling us all about it.
(and go read your Day in the Life blog!)
Dx