Wish upon a star

I recently gave up one of my sessions at work because I was finding it too much.  I think it being an afternoon session didn't help as I get more tired as the day goes on.  Anyway, since then I have been feeling a bit lost I think.  I have worked Thursday afternoons for so long I still have to remind myself not to have lunch early and start getting ready to go!

On analysing my feelings I am not so sure it is the shorter working week.  I am feeling discontent for some reason, and as usual, I think that reason is lack of available funds.  I know, I know, daft giving up work when we need the money!  I so want to be able to go out and buy what I want, not just what we need (do we really need it or can we get away without for a while longer!).  I know the feeling will pass, it always does, but boy I wish it would hurry up!

I decided to pretend I have endless amounts of money and start a wish list, so here goes :o)
1.    New kitchen, flooring and walls
2.    New flooring in the hall and lounge
3.    A room dedicated to practising reiki, so people can come to the house for it.
4.    Maybe scrap numbers 1 - 3 and have a bigger house with some land, workshop for hubby and a reiki room!  Oh, and a grandad annex.
5.    Nice new clothes for myself and the family.
6.   A newer car with a cd player in so I can listen to my music instead of relying on the radio and my mp3

Its not a very exciting list, and I don't think its an unrealistic one.  Blimey, what a sad life lol. 

I would really love to know why some people are successful and others aren't.  Surely it can't just be down to ambition?  The job you do must account for some of it.  Obviously Dental Nursing is not the way to go!  I have to pay £220 for the privilidge of being a registered dental nurse.  Thats 7 sessions I have to work for nothing, three and a half weeks of the year I don't get paid for.  There are also courses we have to do to keep up with cpd for the registration requirements, one I went on last year cost £117 and I refused to do it this year.  It really isn't worth it.  I understand why we have to keep up with all the current rules and regulations, I really do, but I just don't think the fee is a fair one.  I really had better stop because this is one of my hobby horses, I get so worked up about it.  Switching off...................