Wow, twice in two days. Don't get excited, this is going to be a sort of health diary, so click onto another page quick.
Okay, woke up with a headache again. As the painkillers didn't work yesterday I have decided to just put up and shut up again. Feeling crappy today, hot and cold, really having trouble regulating my temperature for some reason today, headache, feel sick, ache and energy levels almost on zero.
Have cleaned the bathrooms, a necessity obviously, no matter how I feel each week. Despite my desperate wish to just sit or sleep, I have to push myself daily or I would turn into a total couch potato. It is a constant battle, one I am extremely fed up of. If I look ahead and think of this as the rest of my life it gets too depressing. I am still angry and resentful after all these years. I resent the fact that I drag myself through life on a daily basis, constantly having to make a decision as to whether I can take my dog out AND do something else, tidy up maybe, do the ironing. Today it rained a few minutes after getting out with Specks and he made the decision to hightail off home! As I had to go to the bank, and get some milk I was happy to go along with him.
I was reversing very slowly out of my parking space as there was a people carrier parked next to me and I couldn't see if any cars were coming. There was a rangerover type thing coming and the look the woman gave me made me want to get out of the car and thump her! I mouthed I couldn't see but she just had such a look on her face. Obviously she was mightier than me and I was in her way. I find myself having sparks of irritation now that I used to get in my younger PMS days! Not very often, but I really do think I would have given her a right mouthful given half a chance. Old age? Menopause? Or just maybe sheer frustration. I was almost crying with fatigue anyway, the rubbishy tesco bag handle had broken, and this was just the final straw.
I hate it all, so there. Stamps foot in frustration. Before anyone says have you tried this or that, the answer is yes, we have researched and researched trying to find something to help. I am taking yet more minerals, and garlic too this time in a bid to mop up any free mercury in my system. Next step composite fillings. Bank loan here we come lol.
Okay, thats it. Blogging doesn't really help as much as it used to. Its getting very repetative. I guess its just a way of me moaning without actually moaning to anyone in particular and pissing them off.
Its me, signing off ......
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